Meditation's on Life

When I think about life, and the mistakes I make, day by day and year by year, and how I must disappoint my King, it makes me want to break down and cry. Then when I remember and reflect upon Christ's sacrifice, and its effects. I want to dance with joy. I try to do things for God, and am constantly surprised by the joy I find in the doing. I try to do things for myself, and from this I get little joy. I feel lonely, and see men about me with girlfriends or who are married, and I envy them that they know love. then I remember the love of God for me, and the comradeship of my brothers, and am content. For Now. It is said there for everything there is a season, and when I dream, I can almost hear God saying "not yet, it is not yet time" and I pray for the time to come quickly, and that when it comes, that I will be ready.

America and Armour

Well i haven't posted in ages, not much to say I guess. I've moved to the US now, doing research to get my degree, I'm still trying to fight the good fight. I'm making some armour at the moment, similar to lorica plumata, and buy the plate bits I can't make myself. Its looking good right now, I'm near to finishing the shoulder pieces and starting on the sleeves.

Inspiration

I'm a christian, I am not known as a mighty man of God, I have never prayed out in the service. My attempts at evangelism seem slow and clumsy right now, but I've got a secret. I dream of being a knight. I dream of being known maybe not as the best evangelist, but as a mighty man of God. A man who stands for God. I dream of becoming in truth, a Knight of the Living God. I came upon this a number of months ago, and the idea just blew me away.